Moving On In 2018
I’ve always been horrible at blogging but there’s no time like the present to make a change, right? I’m all about change these days. There were some pretty big changes in my life this past year actually.
My husband and I separated this past March.
It was a big shock because well, love is blind. It’s been a rough few months. I realized that this happens so much more than we realize and I’m not alone out here. While everyone’s experience is a little bit different, I am hoping that by sharing my story, my experience, and my perspective, I can let someone out there know that they’re not alone.
One day I think I’m fine and excited about the future and the next day I’m sad and lonely, and that part sucks. Feeling alone is the worst. Even with a great support system I realized that no one can make that feeling go away but me. And time. In the beginning I found myself often thinking about what could have been, and mourning the loss of the family (and Husband) that I once had. I got through the anger surprisingly quickly. Once I figured out the what and why, it was easier to move on from the anger part. Oh.. And therapy, thank god for good therapists.
No matter what I’m feeling during my rollercoaster of emotions, the one thing I am positive about is that I want to be strong for my girls. Children look to their parents to learn how to handle life, especially the tough stuff, and I just keep telling myself that if I’m ok, they will be too. They won’t have the family life I had hoped for us, but I’m choosing to believe that in the long run, it’s all for the best. I’ve always liked to believe that everything happens for a reason.
Marriage is never easy but I’ve learned you either choose to grow together or you grow apart. And sometimes, you don’t get to make that choice at all.
Here’s the great part though, it may sound cheesy, but I now have a second chance at love and at living my happiest life. Everyone deserves to be happy and I will never settle for less. We all have THIS choice. It amazes me how many people would rather make excuses and be comfortable, than strive for true happiness. Life is too short people!!
For me, making life changes is scary but regret is even scarier. Even though I’m still sad at times, I now have a new sense of hope and strength. And I’m grateful for that. I know that even if I’m single forever, I feel happier having that hope.
Thank you to all of you that were there for me, you know who you are. Hard times really do show you who your real people are. I’m excited to see what 2018 has in store for me, my family, and my business.
This Summer I had some new photos taken of my girls and I. Thank you Anya Maria Photography. These photos mean so much to me. They empower me and remind me to be the strong, happy woman I want to be. I hope to be able to do the same for other Mom’s out there.
Have you been debating booking a family photo session? Maybe your husband doesn’t want to spend the money or you want to lose weight first? Don’t wait. Time flies, families change, kids grow. And you can always find an excuse not to do it.
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